Confession

As many of you know I am newly a Christian, which has been amazing!! I have come to a conclusion over the past few days though. This blog and my weight loss journey has become my idol. I'm constantly thinking about what to eat, what to write, how many followers I have instead of thinking about Jesus, reading my scriptures and praying. Now I know that I can do both in my life but that's not what I have been doing. I wake up every morning and immediately go to my reader. I read over all the blog postings about weight loss and pass over the blogs about Jesus and scriptures. I do the same thing in my email.

I'm happy that I'm so motivated with this journey but I'm not happy that it has taken over my life. I need to put Jesus first and all other things will come. Hope everyone has an amazing day!!

What to eat

So yesterday I was snacking all day...yes it was fruit and other healthy food but still I was eating all day. It's that time of the month where all I want to do is eat and eat. I don't know what to do about it. I'm proud of myself for choosing health choices yesterday but I need some ideas for good snacks that hopefully will stop me from grazing like a cow. I can't do this every month, so if you have any ideas please let me know!! Hope everyone has a great hump day!!

UHHH!!

After all the hard work that I put into last week I go and screw it up with one day :( I was doing so good and I know that I had lost more than 1 lb during the week and then came the Superbowl. I had no self-control I ate everything around me and I had 3 glasses of wine.

I know this morning before I ever stepped on the scale that it was going to be bad but I didn't think it was going to be this bad. 1 freaking pound I'm so disgusted with myself. Why did I do this...oh I know because I'm a fatty with no self-control. Oh well this is a new week and a new day and I can do better this week. Thank goodness the Superbowl only comes once a year!!

So far so good

A little update from yesterday... I did awesome at community group!! I took water with me and all I had there was an orange!! I'm so proud of myself :) Today I went to another bible study and they had muffins there. I stayed clear of those too. I just might be able to do this!!


But, Sunday is the Superbowl. Super excited going to some friends house so that should be fun, but a little worried about how I'm gonna do. I don't want all this hard work from this past week to go down the drain in one day. But then again we never get out to social events so I'm thinking I shouldn't let that be my whole focus. I know, I know that I need to watch what I eat on Sunday, but I also know that if I'm stressing about what I eat the whole time I will not enjoy myself. I'm gonna stay positive and take veggies with me, I can't deprive myself or this will never work!!

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!

On the road again!!

So far so good, but today is going to be my first big hurtle. I had lots of running around this morning which included going to the grocery store. I was pretty hungry by the time I got there and all I could see and smell were donuts, cookies, pie etc. but I did it!! I only bought fruits and veggies!! I came to a conclusion though I need to start carrying reinforcements with me. It's amazing how much you have to retrain your body and brain.

I have already noticed that I'm wanting water more then I have in the past. Coffee is my new best friend...had some flavored creamer and bam I have a treat!! But, tonight I have community group (bible study) and I'm really concerned about having the self-control not to go crazy. I'm gonna bring lots of water and hope for the best. I'm already thinking/wondering what everyones going to bring and hoping for something really tasty. I know I know that's not what I should be thinking about but I think it's gonna take a little while to get out of that mind frame. Whenever I go to a social gathering that is my first thought what is everyone going to bring to eat.

I really need to change that way of thinking. Any suggestions?

OMG!!

So I have had a severe migraine since yesterday and I thought it was just the stress of going to Wal-Mart to get all my groceries. Well I was wrong!! I'm pretty sure my body is going through withdrawals and that's why I have such a bad migraine. My body can't figure out where all the sugar,fat, calories, just plain crappy stuff is and why I'm eating so much healthy stuff. I know that this will past but I have to admit this sucks. I'm gonna get through it though nothing's gonna get in my way this time!!

First Day of the new me

So I did it! I weighed myself and there was a lot of damage!! lol I weigh 264.9. I'm going to weigh myself every Tuesday. I went to the grocery store and got all the healthy food. Wow, I forgot how expensive eating healthy is. I know it's going to be worth it in the end but no wonder I eat such crappy food that's all I can afford. When I got all the food put away I was starving but was so overwhelmed with all my choices I couldn't figure out what to eat. I guess that's a good thing, but it's still challenging starting a new way of eating and figuring out what to eat. So I had  a frozen meal and some yogurt. I feel really good, I'm full and only had 5 pts. total for lunch. Now what to have for dinner...ugh it's a never ending cycle. I know it's gonna get easier and pretty soon I won't even have to really think about what I'm gonna eat, it's just getting to that point.