Weekend update

I had a great weekend,we took Erin to Chuck E Cheese on saturday. We didn't have any pizza there and I drank water!! WOOHOO!! We have decided that from now on when we go we are taking a friend for Erin. She is only 4 so she can't just go by herself and let me tell you, my husband and I can only handle those games for so long. But, it was worth it she had a blast!!

On Sunday after church we started our spring cleaning. Cleaned out the hall closet and the spare bedroom. Worked for like 3 hours and it looks great. Still have a lot to do, but not moving so well today. I have a bad back and it didn't appreciate all the lifting, bending and just plain moving that I did. So today I'm taking it easy.

I'm trying to decide if I want to just start counting calories or continue on WW. I'm doing pretty good on the WW but I'm not sure if this is actually helping me make a lifestyle change. What's going to happen when I lose my weight am I going to know how to eat properly? I think if I start counting my calories then I will learn to make healthy choices without consulting my point system. I don't know I'm at a crossroad right now.  Another problem I have is I don't eat all my points and I'm afraid if I start counting calories I will do the same thing. I'm basically a point "nazi" My husband doesn't think I'm going to continue to lose weight since I only eat about half of my points a day. But, I'm not hungry, so I don't want to eat. I'm just confused, I guess.

So what do you think? Do you count calories, do WW or something else? Hope you had  a great weekend and have a wonderful Monday!!

ABC's of Lucky Girl

Thought this would be a fun way for you to get to know me a little bit. It was fun reading this on some of the blogs I follow!!

(A) Age: 29 gonna be 30 in October and I am super excited!! Can't wait to be out of my twenties!!
(B) Bed Size: Queen
(C) Chore You Hate: I'll be honest...I hate all chores!
(D) Dogs? We have a rottweiler lab mix named Rusty who is 10!! Love him!!
(E) Essential Start Your Day Item: Coffee!!
(F) Favorite Color: Blue, Pink and Orange (for Oregon State Beavers!!)
(G) Gold or Silver? Don't care
(H) Height: 5'7
(I) Instruments You Play: NONE!
(J) Job Title: First and foremost follower of Christ, mom, wife
(K) Kids: Erin who is 4
(L) Live: In Oregon was born in Alaska!
(M) Mom's Name: Maureen
(N) Nicknames: Maggie is actually my nickname my real name is Margarette
(O) Overnight Hospital Stays? 2...appendectomy and child birth
(P) Pet Peeve: I really dislike when I can hear people chewing
(Q) Quote from a Movie: I don't remember lines from movies even if I've seen them 100 times!!
(R) Right or Left Handed? Right.
(S) Siblings: 3: a half-sister, an older sister, and a younger brother
(T) Time You Wake Up? whenever my daughter does
(U) Underwear: This creeps me out!! But yes I do have them :)
(V) Vegetable You Dislike: tomatoes
(W) What Makes You Run Late: I hate running late, but if I get on the computer I lose track of time!!
(X) X-Rays You've Had Done: ankle,back,knee, wrist, just about everything imaginable, I'm a cluts!!
(Y) Yummy Food You Make: Lasagna, cheesecake!
(Z) Zoo, Favorite Animal: Love the elephants

Looking forward to reading your ABC's!!

Guess Post

I got invited to do my first guest post!!! YAY!!  My friend wanted me to write a post as to why I do the Relay for Life. So go check out my friends blog www.30formy30th.blogspot.com!! You can learn more about me than just the fact that I'm a fatty!!
Happy Friday and I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!
Do you do any charity events like the Relay for Life? How long have you done them?

Why...

First of  IT'S SNOWING!!!!! I'm super excited and my daughter is even more excited. She can't wait to get out there and make a snow man.

Okay time to get back on track, today I thought I would list the reasons why I'm doing this. I have been thinking about this a lot the last few days and have come to realize that the reason this is working is I'm mostly doing this for myself and not because I feel like I have to. So here it goes.

• Be able to play with Erin
• Wear cute clothes
• Be healthy
• Feel pretty
• Be active
• Be able to feel my collarbone again
• Feel comfortable meeting new people
• Feel like my husband finds me attractive ( I know he does, but I don't feel like it)
• Make my family proud of me
• It will help with my health-depression, pre-diabetes
• Wear my bathing suit I bought 5 yrs ago after I lost all my weight, but ended up pregnant so didn't get to wear it. :(
• Feel comfortable in my own skin
• To like what I see in the mirror
• JUST TO BE HAPPY!!! 

These are not in any order but they all are important!! I'm off to enjoy the snow while it's here!!!

Exercising....

As I'm reading the blogs that I follow I just keep getting more and more depressed. I feel like I should be doing more to help myself on this journey, but I just don't know how to get started. I've been trying to go for a walk everyday but it's so hard for me to get motivated. I would much rather sit on my fat butt and watch tv or get consumed on this computer. That's not going to help me, I know but how do I get motivated and stay motivated?
I'm so ready to be skinny and healthy, but I'm at a loss here. I'm doing good with my eating for the most part, but exercising is not happening as regular as I would like and as it should be. I will do really good for a few days and then talk myself out of doing or not even think about it. I'm signing up to do the Relay for Life in June and would like to be in better shape by then. I have a few months until then, but if I keep going down this path I fear I will still be in this shape.

What worked for you? Do you have any suggestions, ideas or just some words of encouragement. Happy hump day everyone!!

Thanks Becca!!

I lost 1.9 lbs this week!! I'll take that!! Already have lost my goal for the month so that is awesome!!

I went for a walk last night and I actually jogged about half of it!! YAY!! I was pretty proud of myself. I despise running, but have decided that I need to give it a try. I have to admit that feeling all my fat ripple, shake, bounce while I ran was pretty disgusting, but no pain no gain!! If I keep it up pretty soon there will be no fat wave going on :)

I have to give major thanks to my best friend Becca www.30formy30th.blogspot.com for helping me out last night. I got a craving for pie so I texted her to ask if she wanted to go get some. She asked me how many points that would be and then suggested I make a smoothie instead!! I made me a strawberry, raspberry, blueberry smoothie and it hit the spot. That's how I know this time around I'm gonna be successful. I have a core group of people who will give me support or just tell me that's not worth it!! So thanks again Becca, I probably would have gained weight this week if it wasn't for you!!

Hope everyone has a great Tuesday!!

Rant

So I'm gonna go another direction today, instead of talking about my weight loss journey I'm gonna get a little more personal. Bare with me please. First off last night I found this sight with free backgrounds for blogs. I was all excited to change my blog! (You see, I'm never satisfied, I always think there's something better out there.) So I found a couple that I liked and finally chose THE ONE!! So I followed the directions and got my background all changed. I hated it and just wanted my original back. However, I couldn't remember how I made my original. So this is my new blog, I'm not saying I don't like this one but I want my original one back. I should now better by now, I'm almost 30 yrs old you would think I would have figured it out by now that most often my original pick is the best one.

Second of all my computer sucks...it froze just trying to turn on this morning and when I finally got it to start I couldn't get on the internet. I have deleted all the cookies, defragmented it and don't know what else to do with it. AAAAHHHHH!!!

Thirdly, today is Presidents Day!! So shouldn't we be celebrating our Presidents instead of  shopping. I just don't get why every holiday has to be made into a huge shopping day. I'm a very patriotic person and love this county and I just don't understand. Let's take a moment today and remember what this day is truly about, remember what our founding father's went through to make this the USA!!

On a brighter note I have finally figured out how to make smoothies. I know what your thinking come on Maggie how hard is it to make a smoothie...well for me it was hard. They always were either really bitter or just bland but now I've got it. For those of you who know me personally know that I can make cheesecakes, breads, pies from scratch but yet I can't make a smoothie. Maybe I over think it I don't know!

Sorry for all the negativity, it's just one of the days. Hope everyone has a wonderful Presidents Day and take a moment to reflect on the day!!

MIA

Sorry I haven't posted the last couple of days, I've been really sick. I started getting sick last week, but Tuesday I was feeling better so thought I was over the hump. Man was I wrong. Thanks to my wonderful husband I spent all of today in bed and I'm feeling a little better. The only good thing about being sick is I don't eat a lot. Can tell I'm feeling better because I'm starving!! Hope everyone has a great weekend!!

My new favorite thing

I have found my new favorite snack. It's the 100 calorie pack of almonds from Emerald. The dry roasted almonds are 2 pts on Weight Watchers (the old plan) and you get quite a bit. When you see the small package they come in you will first be doubtfull if this is worth the points. But, trust me they are!! They taste really good and are filling! Love them!!

My second favorite thing is Sweettarts Hearts. They are like conversation hearts but made my SweetTarts! You get 11 for 1 point. I know what you are thinking only 11, but they hit the spot. I have been craving something sweet and I have found it. I'm kicking myself though because I only got 1 bag and they were on clearance. I guess I'm headed back to the store today to get more!!


Happy Wednesday!! Hope everyone has a great hump day!!

Feeling Good

I'm feeling like I'm walking on a cloud!! Lost almost 5 lbs and had a wonderful Valentines Day with my family!! It's amazing how losing weight makes you feel so much better!! I know it's just the beginning and there are going to be bumps in the road but right now I'm feeling wonderful!!

I was listening to my local christian radio station the other day and they were talking to a local pastor who was talking about how we are so hard on ourselves. He made a really good point and that point is this. When a baby takes it's first step what do we do? We hug them, clap, video tape and just rejoice in how remarkable they are, but when we lose only 1 lb in a week what do we do? We put ourselves down; why didn't I lose more, maybe I should just quit. Maybe we should treat ourselves more like that baby, each little lb is a miracle and we should rejoice in that!!

I hope you all have a wonderful Tuesday and we can all learn to rejoice in each of our baby steps!!

Happy Valentines Day!!!

Love is in the air...or maybe that's the flu bug!!! Yes my whole family is sick :( That's okay though because we don't do anything for Valentines Day anyways. This weekend was a rough one with all of us being sick, but it was still nice just watching movies with the family and enjoying each other!

We made Turkey dinner on Saturday...Yummy!! It was so good and I'm super proud of myself. I didn't go back for seconds. I took small portions of everything, even a roll and was surprisingly satisfied with that. I'm a huge pie lover, okay a huge sweet lover, but I fought the urge to make a pie and instead made some jello!! So needless to say I'm super proud of myself!!

How was your weekend? Hope everyone has a great Valentines Day!! Weigh-in tomorrow!!!!

TGIF!!!

Don't really have anything to say and don't really feel so good so I thought I would post some pictures of my family!!

Our Family!!

My daughter Erin on her 4th birthday

Erin getting ready for her first Christmas Program

Joe and Erin the loves of my life!!

 

 

 Still to come my before picture!! Gotta let someone take a full-body picture of me :) Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!

Confession

As many of you know I am newly a Christian, which has been amazing!! I have come to a conclusion over the past few days though. This blog and my weight loss journey has become my idol. I'm constantly thinking about what to eat, what to write, how many followers I have instead of thinking about Jesus, reading my scriptures and praying. Now I know that I can do both in my life but that's not what I have been doing. I wake up every morning and immediately go to my reader. I read over all the blog postings about weight loss and pass over the blogs about Jesus and scriptures. I do the same thing in my email.

I'm happy that I'm so motivated with this journey but I'm not happy that it has taken over my life. I need to put Jesus first and all other things will come. Hope everyone has an amazing day!!

What to eat

So yesterday I was snacking all day...yes it was fruit and other healthy food but still I was eating all day. It's that time of the month where all I want to do is eat and eat. I don't know what to do about it. I'm proud of myself for choosing health choices yesterday but I need some ideas for good snacks that hopefully will stop me from grazing like a cow. I can't do this every month, so if you have any ideas please let me know!! Hope everyone has a great hump day!!

UHHH!!

After all the hard work that I put into last week I go and screw it up with one day :( I was doing so good and I know that I had lost more than 1 lb during the week and then came the Superbowl. I had no self-control I ate everything around me and I had 3 glasses of wine.

I know this morning before I ever stepped on the scale that it was going to be bad but I didn't think it was going to be this bad. 1 freaking pound I'm so disgusted with myself. Why did I do this...oh I know because I'm a fatty with no self-control. Oh well this is a new week and a new day and I can do better this week. Thank goodness the Superbowl only comes once a year!!

So far so good

A little update from yesterday... I did awesome at community group!! I took water with me and all I had there was an orange!! I'm so proud of myself :) Today I went to another bible study and they had muffins there. I stayed clear of those too. I just might be able to do this!!


But, Sunday is the Superbowl. Super excited going to some friends house so that should be fun, but a little worried about how I'm gonna do. I don't want all this hard work from this past week to go down the drain in one day. But then again we never get out to social events so I'm thinking I shouldn't let that be my whole focus. I know, I know that I need to watch what I eat on Sunday, but I also know that if I'm stressing about what I eat the whole time I will not enjoy myself. I'm gonna stay positive and take veggies with me, I can't deprive myself or this will never work!!

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!

On the road again!!

So far so good, but today is going to be my first big hurtle. I had lots of running around this morning which included going to the grocery store. I was pretty hungry by the time I got there and all I could see and smell were donuts, cookies, pie etc. but I did it!! I only bought fruits and veggies!! I came to a conclusion though I need to start carrying reinforcements with me. It's amazing how much you have to retrain your body and brain.

I have already noticed that I'm wanting water more then I have in the past. Coffee is my new best friend...had some flavored creamer and bam I have a treat!! But, tonight I have community group (bible study) and I'm really concerned about having the self-control not to go crazy. I'm gonna bring lots of water and hope for the best. I'm already thinking/wondering what everyones going to bring and hoping for something really tasty. I know I know that's not what I should be thinking about but I think it's gonna take a little while to get out of that mind frame. Whenever I go to a social gathering that is my first thought what is everyone going to bring to eat.

I really need to change that way of thinking. Any suggestions?

OMG!!

So I have had a severe migraine since yesterday and I thought it was just the stress of going to Wal-Mart to get all my groceries. Well I was wrong!! I'm pretty sure my body is going through withdrawals and that's why I have such a bad migraine. My body can't figure out where all the sugar,fat, calories, just plain crappy stuff is and why I'm eating so much healthy stuff. I know that this will past but I have to admit this sucks. I'm gonna get through it though nothing's gonna get in my way this time!!

First Day of the new me

So I did it! I weighed myself and there was a lot of damage!! lol I weigh 264.9. I'm going to weigh myself every Tuesday. I went to the grocery store and got all the healthy food. Wow, I forgot how expensive eating healthy is. I know it's going to be worth it in the end but no wonder I eat such crappy food that's all I can afford. When I got all the food put away I was starving but was so overwhelmed with all my choices I couldn't figure out what to eat. I guess that's a good thing, but it's still challenging starting a new way of eating and figuring out what to eat. So I had  a frozen meal and some yogurt. I feel really good, I'm full and only had 5 pts. total for lunch. Now what to have for dinner...ugh it's a never ending cycle. I know it's gonna get easier and pretty soon I won't even have to really think about what I'm gonna eat, it's just getting to that point.