Recommitting

The weekends are horrible. I eat whatever I want and rationalize it to myself.

fat self: "Oh it's the weekend"
brain: "but you've done so good this week"
fat self: "I know but I don't get to eat Chinese food very often or I'm doing something with my friends I shouldn't have to eat a salad while they eat whatever they want."
brain: "Don't you want to be healthy, be happy with yourself, lose that .5 lbs to get to 10 lbs lost"
fat self: "oh just shut up I can eat whatever I want"

Consequently I'm stressing about weigh-in tomorrow. I know I probably gained back everything I lost last weekend and on Thursday I'm going on a mini vacation. I'm so stressed about my choices this coming weekend and don't want to ruin our weekend worrying so much on making the right choice.

This healthy lifestyle thing is so much harder than I thought it would be. I was doing so good and now I feel as though I have it a brick wall. I feel like I'm letting myself down, my daughter, my husband and everyone who is supporting me. I hate letting other people down. Maybe that's the problem maybe I should hate letting myself down more than I hate letting other people down. Ultimately who is this going to affect more me or everyone else. It's ME!! I guess I just need to do my Whys again and just remind myself why I started this journey and why it's gonna be so worth it!! Oh by the way I've started crocheting again and that is helping with my snacking. My hands and brain are keeping busy so I don't have time or the urge to snack!!

Well I hope everyone had a great weekend and has a great week!! I'm so looking forward to Thursday and just reconnecting with my husband.